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The easiest/hardest part about being a blogger/influencer is having to “put yourself out there.” However, something that I take pride in is being 100% with you (even if it’s at my own expense). If you follow my other social media channels, particularly Instagram and Snapchat, you know that I often refer to #sadboysclub. As funny (or sad) as it may seem, there’s a reason why I do, and I guess it’s about time to tell you why…

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OUTFIT | Hat c/o Twentyfour Carat. Sunglasses c/o The Goods. Jacket c/o Kenneth Cole. Sweater c/o Live and NY. T-Shirt c/o Matiere. Ring c/o Good After Nine. Jeans c/o Hudson. Socks c/o Richer Poorer. Shoes c/o Kenneth Cole.

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A couple of years ago, I lost one of my best friends to suicide. Despite all of the troubling times (to put it lightly) I faced growing up, nothing hit me as hard as losing someone that shouldn’t have gone the way they did. It wasn’t until that time that I realized how fragile we really are, or rather, how fragile I actually am. To add some back story, I used to be a huge @$$hole (some would argue that I still am). I always saw and assumed the worst in people. A pessimist, if you will. I was angry. I hated most everything around me. I never knew why I felt that way, I just did, and so I went along thinking it was a a normal way of life. It wasn’t until my friend’s passing that I started to look inside and actually face my inner demons. I came to realize that, like most people, I was just hurting. I was hurting from my past, and I never dealt with it, which you should know, is the absolute worst thing you can do.

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Since then, I’ve made every attempt to turn things around. I’m slowly but surely embracing those things that hurt me for so long, and turning that energy into something positive. I guess you can say I’ve done a full 180, more or less. I’ll save that explanation for another post, but for now, just know that everyone’s facing their own battles (as cliche as that is), and instead of judging them or looking the other way, we have to not only give them a chance, but do what we can to help them find their way and figure things out. I know the most common excuse is that we don’t have time to do that, but honestly, there’s no better time than now.

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I wouldn’t go so far as saying that who I was is completely behind me. In fact, a lot of those feelings still linger, but you better believe that I’m sitting in the driver seat, and that “dark passenger” is tagging along for the ride.

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